Just met the counselor today. Learnt from her that with my current circumstances, it's almost impossible for me to get promoted. The moment I heard that, my heart sank. I tried my best to keep myself composed; trying to hold back my tears. Later I thought, So what if I can get promoted? Would I be able to do well for 'A' levels next year? So... I'm planning to move on to a private school or something. But the thought of leaving the structured education system gave me mixed feelings. I really love to continue wearing the Saint uniform and I'd definitely miss wearing it. But what I will miss the most is my class this year; a bunch of fun-loving people, that made my stay in SA a fruitful one. I'm really grateful to those who tried to help and guide me through the year. I may have wasted another year, but in this extra year that I've wasted, I have met some of the most wonderful people in my life. Oh. And not forgetting Xinying, Weiyang and Chesed who made my 2 years in JC a great one too. I really like to thank you all for everything. Lol. I'm really no good with words, so pardon the limited vocab =]

and before this post start sounding like a thank you speech, I'll continue sharing about my plans so far.

With fingers crossed, I hope I can go into a Polytechnic to do a diploma. At least my options are wider there. But if can't, then I'll have to go UniSIM to do their one and only diploma that I qualify, which is... Diploma in Management Studies... WTH lah... and I totally think I'm not suited for that... lol... but worse come to worse, I'll just have to go in NS first then come out to do my diploma.

And from the time I visited the counsellor till I reached home, I was worried and thinking of how to break the news to my parents. After dinner, I think my dad can feel that I'm worrying a lot. So he told me that it perfectly alright to make mistakes and fall. And he would be fully supportive of me going to poly. I almost broke into tears. I just felt so damn guilty that I've let my parents down. My mum's hopes were so high, but I smashed it.

Guilty =(

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dMC-
Learning to let go.